Today is the official due day, and no baby yet. :-( I am getting soooooo impatient - mostly because the pressure is on and the clock is ticking to still have a chance at a VBAC. If it wasn't for that, I think I would feel less stressed. I pretty much need to have this baby in the next 8 days in order to stick with the midwife program and avoid a scheduled C-section. I am trying to remain optimistic and realistic. I know I will be a bit disappointed if I end up having another c-section; there is just no way around that. However, I do pray that if things should go that way, I will be at peace about it knowing it was the Lord's will.
BUT...any prayers sent up on my and baby's behalf would be much appreciated...please pray this baby would come in the next week (tonight would be even better ;-) ) I can't be induced and must go into labour on my own before 41 + 1 days in order to avoid a transfer to an ob/gyn which would almost certainly mean a C-section.
I am feeling very uncomfortable, nervous, a little anxious, and like I can do nothing but think about this baby all day long. Sleeping at night has been horrible, so I'm pretty much out of commission most of the day, which I feel badly about. I'm just focusing on keeping on top of the basic housework, trying to walk on the treadmill once in awhile (that is becoming increasingly difficult!), and resting when I can since I'm sleeping so poorly at night. I have to confess that I am not one of those women who really enjoys being pregnant. Yes, I still find joy and rejoice in being pregnant and the miracle that it is, but I do not really enjoy the many aspects of being pregnant, if that makes any sense. This pregnancy has been AWESOME, though, health-wise as compared to my first one, so that is a tremendous blessing. I was so terribly sick with Ellie and then at the end I was very, very faint and had to head to the ER a few times because my blood pressure would dip so low. I have had none of those issues this time around.
At least we know that one way or another....it will be a January baby!! 2 weeks or less and I 'll be holding my little bundle....:-D
Boy or Girl? What do you all think!?